Why is it that I always have to have the last word in an argument? Why do I always need my opinion to be heard? Why am I so good at manipulating people? Why must I always be so abrasive in my honesty? Why do I find pleasure in pointing out my friends' flaws? Why am I so condescending to nonbelievers? Why do I always believe that I am right?
Why am I writing out my struggles????
This is a form of apology to anyone that has ever been a victim of my sin (specifically those listed above). My personality is plagued.... completely DISEASED.... and I'm sorry for the times that you've been exposed to my flaws.
I'm sorry for the times that I've been a bad witness... a bad encourager... a bad sister..... a bad listener..... a bad friend.
Please believe me--- the Lord is in the process of renewing me, and changing me. I think internal sin (as opposed to external sin) requires a longer transformation time & a longer healing period.
And please, if you truly love me---- you won't be afraid to confront me about my offenses.